RE: The Drug Video That's Spreading Like Fire Around The Internet Right Now: Krokodil
I think crokadile problem is over exaggerated, at least in the US. I was a junkie for 5 years and never came across it. It can be easily made with eye drops and heroin making your heroin go a lot further. Most junkies know this, yet I've never seen one actually do it. The only people I've talked to that have actually seen it, bought it thinking it was regular heroin because it looks the same. What is a huge problem is heroin laced with fentynol. That's what 99% of overdoses are from. By the time I got clean about half of what I was buying had fentynol, it was getting hard to tell how strong each dose was gonna be. this is why most of the recovery community supports decriminalization. At least the drugs would be as safe as can be and addicts could live long enough to get clean. Thanks for the post Stella.
The best article I've ever read about addiction was written by this guy who was a high school teacher addicted to fentanyl:
https://medium.com/addiction-unscripted/confessions-of-a-drug-addicted-high-school-teacher-d41a15bd1170#.a7xmy51g6
Weird - I've come across several doctors addicted to fentanyl too. It is actually 180 times stronger than morphine and about 100 times stronger than heroin (not 20 times - 100 micrograms fentanyl is roughly equal to 10mg diamorphine which is heroin). Plus you don't have to inject it - it can be taken transdermally as patches and they are commonly used for cancer patients/terminal illness and sometimes for chronic pain. There has been an explosion of professionals and well off people addicted to prescription opioids and it is a problem that is largely ignored.
Also the formatting on that article is beautiful. I would love to have something like that on Steemit!
Flakka is the one that really freaks me out because joints can be laced with the stuff and you'd never know it. Gaining access to clean drug sources would definitely save a lot of people because with it and Krokodil, it appears that brain damage can occur.
I was once prescribed a legal drug called Paxil, and it was the most addictive one I've ever experienced. It also had some really weird effects on me, much like that part of the video where the guy is disconnected from his body. That's how I felt on Paxil. The really weird thing about being given drugs by a doctor is that the doctor never follows you around in life to see how you're doing. When the doctor asked me how I was on the drug, I just answered that I was "fine". The reality is that I couldn't see how I was going insane on it. I had no judgment whatsoever. That Paxil was like a hallucinogenic to me. I loved it becuase it took all my pain away, and it also took away my ability to care about my safety. I would fall asleep in public parks and in my car all the time during the day because i was barely sleeping at night. I never even considered this to be abnormal because the drug clouded my thinking to an absurd degree. I got off the stuff after a year or so.......it was hard to get off of.
A "friend" got me with that one when I was 16. One of the worst nights of my life. Lost many friends who saw me in that state who had no idea I even smoked. Fairly certain it was "sherm"/"love boat", a PCP laced doob, due to the extreme tunnel vision and the fact that some jackass was able to convince me that if I rolled around in a (muddy) ditch the effects would stop. =/
jeez....I was lucky
what were you mainly using and how did you recover?
My drug history is very extensive. I've abused just about everything you could think of. The last five years my drug of choice was heroin but I would also do meth or coke almost everyday. I tried getting clean for a year with a doctor and therapist but after I overdosed the second time I checked into rehab. I stayed there for two months then went to a sober living and did intensive outpatient treatment for another three months. Basically I did nothing but recover for 5 months. I was lucky that I had good insurance That sent me to a super nice rehab in Malibu almost free. Most addicts don't have access to that kind of help.
yes, you were lucky indeed. I just read your drug story and wow, I could relate to some of your feelings especially the part where you feel you don't deserve it. I think a lot of addicts have that kind of isolation going on, and even when I'm with people, i don't feel connected to them. For me, I think that is where my addiction really took off.....isolation instead of connecting.
Your story was really good. I think you are lucky to be alive. Thanks for responding to my post. It feels kind of ghost-like on here these days. I should dig up my video I recorded of myself while I was on Paxil. It's really messed up....
I was on Paxil for a few weeks. It does do some weird things. Thanks for re-steeming my post! It means lot coming from you! I'm really self conscious about my writing. I dropped out after my softmore year of high school so I haven't had much worked critiqued. I almost didn't post it. Thanks for everything Stella!
ah, you're welcome!