yes, you were lucky indeed. I just read your drug story and wow, I could relate to some of your feelings especially the part where you feel you don't deserve it. I think a lot of addicts have that kind of isolation going on, and even when I'm with people, i don't feel connected to them. For me, I think that is where my addiction really took off.....isolation instead of connecting.
Your story was really good. I think you are lucky to be alive. Thanks for responding to my post. It feels kind of ghost-like on here these days. I should dig up my video I recorded of myself while I was on Paxil. It's really messed up....