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My drug history is very extensive. I've abused just about everything you could think of. The last five years my drug of choice was heroin but I would also do meth or coke almost everyday. I tried getting clean for a year with a doctor and therapist but after I overdosed the second time I checked into rehab. I stayed there for two months then went to a sober living and did intensive outpatient treatment for another three months. Basically I did nothing but recover for 5 months. I was lucky that I had good insurance That sent me to a super nice rehab in Malibu almost free. Most addicts don't have access to that kind of help.

yes, you were lucky indeed. I just read your drug story and wow, I could relate to some of your feelings especially the part where you feel you don't deserve it. I think a lot of addicts have that kind of isolation going on, and even when I'm with people, i don't feel connected to them. For me, I think that is where my addiction really took off.....isolation instead of connecting.
Your story was really good. I think you are lucky to be alive. Thanks for responding to my post. It feels kind of ghost-like on here these days. I should dig up my video I recorded of myself while I was on Paxil. It's really messed up....

I was on Paxil for a few weeks. It does do some weird things. Thanks for re-steeming my post! It means lot coming from you! I'm really self conscious about my writing. I dropped out after my softmore year of high school so I haven't had much worked critiqued. I almost didn't post it. Thanks for everything Stella!

ah, you're welcome!