oh im so sorry to read all this, i pretty much feel the same as you, and i often think i wish i never was born, and i find my life a total diseaster, all the wrong decisions i made...im very depressed, taking medication, see counsellor, but in the end its all up to yourself..
i wish you all the strength
I don't wish I wasn't born... I hope you stop feeling that way soon. You will find a way to fix everything. That's the purpose of living. Stay strong! I wish the same for you.