When I read her letter, I resonated so much with what she said. Our son was doing so well for quite a long time with diet alone to manage his t1d. Then a little into August, he caught a cold and diet wasn’t enough anymore. We had to go back to the insulin shots. I did not deal well with this new reality. I dug even deeper into researching ways to make the diet work again or other supplements and so on. Nothing was working. So many questions ran through my head. And yes, this idea that if we obey the Father and all will be well with us does not explain either why young, innocent children are struck with disease.
Finally after the exhaustion of it all became too much, I surrendered and came to an acceptance. I was able to hear the Father tell me, “You think you can control this. It’s not for you to control. In all of this, you have forgotten your first love. You have lost your joy.” And it was true.
He doesn’t always answer our “why” questions. But if there’s one thing all this has taught me is that He is good and He wants what’s best for us. What’s best for us is for our hearts to be in the right place and our faith be strong. Sometimes we only achieve that by receiving what we perceive as being a curse. But righting our hearts and strengthening our faith is far better for us than perfect health or any other blessing we could receive.