I keep thinking about what you said - “don’t wait too long.” It never really left me. Every time I start to believe you might be right, my mind comes up with a bunch of excuses (maybe even like what I just wrote here). I don’t know - maybe age really does bring perspective, like you said. To be 40+, maybe that’s when things start to click.

I just learned the word Torschlusspanik - and your words got a lot louder in my mind. I know the word is often used with a bit of humor, but it landed strangely seriously for me.

you'll understand that at the latest when you reach your wish of 40+

That's another 10 years... Too long. And yet, I can't seem to agree with you now.

Physically exhausted

Let me guess, Böckchen? :-)