RE: Musing 35
And what if we don't ask but observe for those spiritual/ethical moments? Could we find them better then? The child examining her ant. The neighbour wishing a departed soul well.
Beautiful examples!
If there is something clinically autistic present for you in your computing system (the brain) then it can be hard to see how even more important than these splendid testimonial examples is the soft weft that runs through your (specific) entire life, like michorrizal roots, seeking connections which are already there as in soulful constellations. If you can already there is nothing autistic about you. If you struggle to do so, never mind, then you are self-curing yourself amazingly. Describing your emotions and observations with as much soul as you do is extremely valid.
Next step: spiritual reality. But it's not for everyone, yet. It's a spiritual evolutionary thing. We mustn't want to run before we can walk. I appreciate your steady footfall.
I was speaking more of an overall observation when it comes to dis-ease (in the literal sense). I do not know enough about the diagnoses of autism - but what caught me was that part where you mention "right behavior" which seems not connected to an inner world but found out as a strategy. To this specific matter, I thought of modern civilization as I assume a lot of people find a strategy without connecting themselves to themselves. ... Hard to explain.
Otherwise, I wouldn't call myself autistic from what I heard and read about it (which is not much).
Same with depression. As I take it literally (pressing emotions deep down) I sense that people tend to do that and, as a consequence, the suppressed emotions start to leak through and the effort to stop them from leaking takes all the energy out - the strength of depression varies but I think many people do have one.
I tend to behave "out of my heart" when I talk too much to people who are always "in their mind". I am happy that I can see and measure that by watching my anxieties rising and falling.
The examples I gave you are really precious to me as they are strong. I am sure there are a lot more but they are not so easy to find and to describe. Some of them happen just fluently and just pass by. Only the after-result or the outcome, so to speak gives those moments a certain satisfaction.
I like it: We mustn't run before we can walk! How often I have had the same insight.
Very grateful for your appreciation of my spiritual examples.