A heart-felt post and I appreciate the honesty. I didn't realize you were Venezuelan either, so I understand your initial motivation with life being so much harder at the moment. I hope you do hit your stride, get the following you want and feel rewarded by what you contributed.

I do often struggle with the 'commercials' of steemit. It's not something I really want to get too invested in, other than the number means that I can have more influence to vote. What depresses me more than anything is that my vote has ZERO value. So that makes me feel like I don't have a voice. -sigh- So if there's to be envy, it's voting envy from my corner. I came to this platform thinking all the time I spent commenting on FB posts might actually mean something to those who share their thoughts and opinions that I enjoy. So the reward for me is essentially networking and the learning from people who interest me bring. But often times the connecting feels so impossible on steemit and an upvote is neccessary to be noticed.

I'll look in on you from time to time. Good Luck on your steemit endeavours and keep having fun!