The Heart Break..

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Seating down on the first class coach, surrounded by the luxury and comfort Mariam looked out the window with tears in her eyes..

Nothing made sense to her anymore, she has always wanted to travel on the first class coach on a train but now she is in it yet it made no sense.

She has always loved writing, and now that things were not so good, the only thing she could think of was to write. She took a pen and brought out her journal to write..

I wished..

I wished I never met you
All we had was just a wish
like we never met
My heart broken into pieces
like a jar of candy.

Deceived by the words of your mouth,
I fell flat.
Subtle words yet
with poisonous venom.
My heart cling to each word
believing I was good enough!

Until today I could write a million words
in few seconds but
Now am speechless
finding no words..
My energy is taking
my walls are broken.
Oh I wish..

I wish the clock didn't tick
that every moment we met.
How you made me believe in love
Yet you broke love into pieces.

I lay down each night
thinking of all we shared
with sleep vanished from my eyes..
Oh this is too much to bear
As my heart hurts with so much pain.

All lies flashed back on a screen
You told lies with no remorse
Never thinking to be caught

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Lost for revenge,
I find my heart
more bitter each day.
Plotting ways to avenge my heart
I sank like titanic..
Waves pulling me backwards
Instead of forward.

The sound of wedding bells drew
so close to me and faded like flowers
withering at the harsh sunlight.
Oh yeah they said she is of age
She should be married
but why is she still single?

I tried to fix us
forgetting that each of us
needs fixing first.
I wish I didn't try!
Now I see clearly
even though I was blind

I am enough! I am beautiful!
I will cry no more
My heart will be fixed
I don't know how long it takes
but I know I can!

My tears will be changed
to diamonds
And the next time I cry
it will be absolutely for great things.
As I drop this pen,
I drop down all my quest
for revenge,
my bitterness
and my sadness!
I am moving forward..

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Who else feels like Mariam? Who else is experiencing what she went through? There is hope for you. The answer is not found in revenge or anger. The answer is found in you realizing your mistakes, putting yourself together and accepting that you are enough!

You can pull through, you will stand again! That job will be yours, that project you are pursuing, will come in a platter. Cheerup! You are not alone. What lies ahead of you is more than what you have lost. Forgive all trespasses, for this is the key of your happiness!

I love you..