Hi @gungho I can't help but to think about dreaded things sometimes because of what I feel with my body so I just put them in writing like now.

I don't have much of a plan but to save some money and to try to achieve my medical goals if feasible. I know in the back of my mind that I can never get into my goals but it is a good thing to hope.

Yes I am just trying to keep a positive outlook but if you are not breathing easy you are always dragged down to negative emotions. There are too many things that really keeps me from being cheery so it is just good that I have something like this community where I can speak to someone without tiring myself in talking with my mouth.

Internet is the way I am keeping myself preoccupied including watching and listening to movies and music online. I am basically physically handicapped so non-strenuous hobbies are just the things that i can do plus the thanksgiving viewing that I do every Thursday, it uplifts my spirits when I listen to the preaching and bible-related consultations.