I have diagnosed major depression. I do FEEL your pain. It is very hard and seems impossible sometimes. Also, I can't speak for other countries but mental health care in the the US is horrible. That's why there's so many addicts because no access to good mental health care. Effed up! Hang in there. I have kitties too they cheer me up. {Hugs}
Thanks for your empathy. <3 Yeah, I'm in the US too. The only reason I've had some therapy (but do not currently) is because I got it through a nonprofit specifically aimed for survivors of violence. Getting it through insurance, even when you have some, which I haven't had for most of my adulthood (but at least I do now have medicaid because of the AHA) - yeah, it's a nightmare. Like you're going to cure major depression or PTSD with six sessions. The system is crazier than my crazy ass. ;)
Kitties are the best caretakers! <3