I Am Hungry And I Am Afraid To Go To The Kitchen

in #disability5 years ago

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I didn't took my Cinacalcet yesterday so now I have not much nausea and feeling hungry already. If I would have taken my Cinacalcet I will really last even until past lunchtime without eating but like in this instance where I don't took my Cinacalcet yesterday I am now craving for food.

I can still walk now, it is a good news but with a guide. I can never for now walk on my own like before and certainly I could not be able to carry anything while I am struggling to walk.

I am a bit hungry and normally a few years before I would walk up to the kitchen and fix myself some food. Those are the times that I am still able, in pain but can still move around.

Not anymore right now because I am still learning and training my legs how to again. My knees now are th problematic ones because the do hurt now when I move or walk and I am at risk of falling when i try to.

I just have to have something that I could use to guide me now because I have a body more worse than a thousand old person. It is just unfortunate that it had came unto this situation where I am basically an invalid person bit still thankful that at least I am still fruitful because of what I am doing online.

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A Walk To The Kitchen Feels Like An Eternity Of Great Distance For Me

That is why I am using all my precious time to earn a bit and also to keep awake until my body wants to take a break. At that point only I will take a rest and have a good sleep.

Anyway I am just frustrated that even as a simple task as going to the kitchen to get my food is proving to be as impossible as drying the pacific ocean. I cannot just wake up my mother to ask for food so I will just wait patiently now until she wakes up so that I can have some food and eat.

I know my body, I know its limitations so I will not brave it and risk myself from falling. Breaking a bone for me is a very big trouble. I do not think that I can be able to heal a broken bone which is why I am ever so careful and will just exercise if I am sure that I can do it.