Oh no!! I'm usually supposed to make you laugh!! Hopefully you were able to cheer up after you were able to flush out some of your emotions. It's healthy, I've learned.

I can see how you relate from your own difficult experience. There's a certain unease when things are unsettled at the end without the peace you need inside. While you can learn to cope with it, it's something you feel you'll never be able to completely have, and that is hard to live with when the feelings are stirred.

While I got some closure, I'll learn to live with what I didn't get as you have too. Most of my closure had to be manufactured with my Mom whispering him things I wasn't able to say myself, and saying some final words to him on my own when he was still listening. My main goal was to tell him I'd figure out how to handle the pain he caused me so he can be at ease to move on. My Mom repeatedly reminded him of this and other promises she asked him to try to keep for me, so I'll have to rely on hope and faith for the rest.

We can only worry about what we can control, and be happy that we did what we could. I believe that the spirit carries on, so perhaps you can still speak to him for your peace, and he may be listening.

Thank you for your genuine reply and support.