I don't hold anything against you—I applaud you! In this comment, you sum up what I probably couldn't express very well.

No one can be robbed of their dignity. But one can give it up oneself, like all those mercenaries or perpetrators who decided to commit unspeakable atrocities. Whether this is done of their own accord or on orders is irrelevant.

Take care of yourself, Maan! Resilience is important for mental balance. You are letting a lot get to you at the moment. Don't let yourself be completely overwhelmed... Greetings from the tiny village in the tiny country on the other side of the globe ;-))