Missing my mother and my feelings

Assalamu Alaikum, how are you all? I hope everyone is well. Actually, today I want to share some of my deepest feelings with you, and I have shared my words through a short video. I am expressing my pain in front of you. Actually, the biggest loss in my life was the passing of my mother. It has been two years since my mother passed away. I can now deeply feel how silent a house becomes without a mother. No one can love as selflessly as a mother. A mother's love was the safest shelter in the world. And having lost that shelter, I am now walking through an invisible void.

When my mother was by my side, I may not have understood the depth of my mother's sacrifice and love. My mother was like a shadow who silently did everything for me. She was never tired and never bored. Today, when my mother is gone, I understand that there is no alternative to her love and sacrifice. Every morning is a little empty, every night is a little lonely. My mother's death has changed my perspective on life. Before, I would easily cry over small problems or run to my mother for comfort. But now I understand that I have learned to cope with my pain alone. And yet, there is a pain deep in my heart that never goes away. If I had my mother, I would have lived a different life today. Maybe I would have had more courage, maybe I would have received more love.