And where do I stand - yes, as I've already noted, I often ask myself this question in this "messed-up world" with "messed-up" understandings of everything, and perhaps this question is the most important one. Or it is not at all?

For sure it is the most important question. Who am I? Who could I be? Who should I be, who ought I to be? Generalised: What is the man, is mankind? What shall we do, what can we know, what are we allowed to hope for (in regard to both: knowing truth, doing good)?

If the path to hell is paved with good intentions --- how can I clear my intentions, and when do I really follow my own conscious intentions? To which (small) part are my intentions visible to myself, to which degree am I responsible for not realising more?