Strong Earthquale and Crochet Frustrations

Today, October 10, 2025, a massive 7.6 magnitude earthquake hit Mindanao, Philippines, even stronger than the 7.2 magnitude earthquake that hit Bogo, Cebu last week. The damages were huge but in my place, we are about 15000 miles away, we only had lighter shake but it was still very scary. We immediately ran outside for safety and thank God that we are safe and now are bock back in our work.

I tried calling my loved ones too but they seem to be busy, my daughter left her phone on her bag during their evacuation from their class room and my husband texted me later that incident that they are safe and was busy at work. My mom and my second daughter in other hand are also safe, they were not able to feel the ground shake and I am glad about that. My sister, very active in her soc med posted that they are okay, we are living next to them and I am glad that they are as well.

Anyway, a memory in my Facebook account popped up and I was like oh, Nagawa ko pala to noong araw?

The caption says "sakto gyud ni sa 1.3 nestogen" what I meant is that I will be able to buy 1.3 kilograms of formula milk for my son with those projects being done above.

During this time, I was so into crochet that I made it as a sideline; that was before I met steemit. I was even getting also little time for sleep just to finish projects and be able to make money from them. My son was just months old during this time and since getting a nanny is very hard because I worry if they would ever take good care of our child, I asked my husband to stop his work and nanny our kids. We may be losing some income but at least we don't need to pay someone and we are confident about our kid's safety.

My husband was encouraging me to make more hats because he will be selling them and so I did. He wore the hats hat I made and advertised it to his friends and even to the sales ladies at a pharmacy where he buys milk for our youngest child.

One ordered a hat and a bag, when the order came, her friends envied her new hat and bag, so they told my husband they want one too!

Too sad during these times, I was not able to take decent pictures of everything that I finished But I was glad I had the picture above and uploaded it.

I made some projects and advertised to sell them on my Facebook page but only a few buy them because they find them too pricey. I got discouraged and focused on blogging.

I still make projects but I was not as motivated as before because my shoulders sores easily sore when I crochet.

Now that my kids are into face-to-face classes, I found a need to make new hast for them but I fail every time I try. Look at the picture above: I had the same stitches as the first picture but it was not looking well and I am sure it won't be working well too.

Sadly, I could not get the form I wanted to achieve no matter how hard I tried but I guess this is how it is when the passion and fire is not in you anymore.

I was not satisfied with my work so I ripped it all off. And the ripped wool look like black spaghetti over my office drawer.

I got frustrated with what I did so I set them aside and waited for the motivation to come, my idea re my inspiration but I just did not have it anymore, I wish it will come back to me. I tried forcing myself but nothing good happened, I was only stressing myself instead of enjoying the thing that I loved.

Honestly, the number one reason that demotivated me was that the things I made for my family were no being valued, I see them on the ground soiled and discarded and it hurt me so much.

Have you been in this shoe also before?

Date posted October 10, 2025