You say there's nothing to envy, but that doesn't mean they don't see it that way.

I left at the age of 15, and only tried it once again. Years later, my eldest sibling invited me to a family reunion. I refused and I told them why. Staying out of the way of poisoning people is better for my health and my children.

You cannot force people to like you, not even if they are family, and I learned that they will never give an honest answer and that bloodline means nothing (except if it comes to manipulating).