You have a very strong way of applying justice, but it's easy to deduce that you have your reasons, my mother says that nothing in this life is random, everything happens for a reason, life has been hard on you but it has formed in you a character that I respect and understand. You are a good boy, there are traces in your life that I don't think you will forget, but what I appreciate here is your way of understanding death, you have no guilty conscience, something that not many people can say, in short, you are what you say in the end, not a saint but you will never be a demon, and what you do before you die, you drink coffee, it's like enjoying what we like the most before leaving this world.