It's my visit to the doctor today and don't know when I'll be back again
I really like to catch some fish here, I can only photograph it.
I am glad that my brother helped me for getting an appointment to the Hematologist because I did texted the number of the clinic but with no reply while my brother actually messaged the clinic and he got it for me. Had I not got in touch with my brother, then this crucial doctor visitation might not happen today.
I don't know what will happen next but of course I am nervous because terrible things might get discovered in my health or body which I may not recover from. My hemoglobin is high but not all signs are there like the itchy skin and my skin is not yellow but I get palpitations and sometimes I feel that it seems that my brain couldn't get enough oxygen, it scares me, who will not be.
I will not be so surprised if bad things are on the closer horizon, all I want to happen is that I will not get a hard time. I know that my plans are long-term which is crazy but at least I already told my brother what to do if I will go away for good. I reckon that even if I have all the riches, if I will not really enjoy life like just enjoying a simple food with good appetite, or going places if I can't walk properly and with pain, and then with this appearance... there is no point of living and then I have to deal with all that for long. But of course if my family will be in the best situation even after I "graduate", it great because it is like my family's hardships will be rewarded.
I want to do more especially for wanting to be a working Christian, I even wanted to start a new hobby, it turns out that pain in my back spoiled it but if God wills it I will still continue what anything I planned to do, there is a bunch of those but my brother will continue it for me, God has mercy. But I will not going to die yet, well maybe, we do not know what the morrow will bring us.
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Camera Sensors: 50 MP Main Camera
Camera Mode: Photo
ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ɪᴍᴀɢᴇs ᴀʙᴏᴠᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴏᴡɴᴇᴅ ʙʏ @cryptopie 𝘶𝘯𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥
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What are you saying? You give up? If you ask me, it doesn't matter what a doctor says but how you feel. You managed to live with dialysis for many years, even a bad one and way longer than the average kidney patient.
If it comes to your new hobby, you haven't even started yet and indeed I find you stubborn to not try out the basics first like backgrounds only with a sponge, which you can paint on if you feel better.
In a way I find this message of yours disappointing, although I understand it all is depressing.
I am not giving-up but my body has the last say and God has the permission. I am just feeling overwhelmed of what to come with this new problem in my blood if I will be subjected to further hardships both physically and financially when I opt-in for medicating a possible illness.
But again I trust God of what he can do, since I felt blessed all the past years of my life because of the great things happened to me, I guess that I am just overthinking Miss @wakeupkitty
Anyway, I already am expecting your frustration about starting my new hobby 😄 because I am not doing yet what you had been telling me, I will post about it soon. It is just I didn't get the result of what I was expecting and made me pause plus again it hurt my back, thank you for your understanding, thank you for all your empathy, you are such a great friend. 🌹🌹🌹💓💓💓
I hope your family is praying for you to recover
Thank you, God bless.
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