RE: My life is full of boring days but on exciting times but I am still compelled to grind and grind
First of all I like you to know that I know not one single person who experience a positive physical well being.
My child asked me yesterday if I ever felt fresh after I woke up. I said no. The child has the same and many have no matter the age or how they look. Most suffer from their back, neck, cramps, painful joints, headaches and so on. It makes me wonder if it is all the result of the mental state (worries, rush) or we have serious lacks of sun, vitamins, minerals.
I know you felt emotional and you have all right to feel that way. No one can feel what you feel, the battle you fight every minute of your life next to the worries and everything you try to take care of. I truly find it a miracle you do this all, but also want you to do something fun for yourself to find some relieve and not only stare at a device or the ceiling.
How about you start with water colour and acrylic? Go have a look at what you can find and I sent you money (see PayPal).
Also look for the plants with flowers in front of your window. It's not a new house but it doesn't mean we can not brighten it up with the beauty we can create if we practice and it gives you different things to photograph.
Friend, let's do it now and not see it as a future hobby. Live today, let's not add more regrets.
A good start for or after Pentecost.
Live for yourself and if you feel you can no longer fight or hold on know that is fine too.
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Let's go for flowers and paint.
P. S. You can feel low or down but you are not the lowest of the low!
I remember one of my brothers telling me when we were just kids and he said, "Last night I closed my eyes and when I opened them again it is already morning". It actually amazed me on how he slept nonstop without waking up at leas once which means an excellent health condition, well of course he is not sick.
I just missed those younger years of mine where at ten o'clock in the evening it is just unbearable to stay awake anymore and at that time the night seems to be so deep in the night for me considering that I am already sick back then but not yet on dialysis, just on the process.
Anyway I was feeling better "sleepwise" because of this mattress, it is not uncomfortable to lay down on my bed in any position thanks to you my friend. I must say that one soft mattress is a key for a good night's sleep although I still have an intermittent sleep pattern during the night but maybe the noise around like from the road causes it too.
I am saying that my body is so different now and I am frustrated about it so little differences in my well-being in terms of improvement is a real joy for me like for example even if I walk like a ten centuries old man with an acacia tree on my back, I am still so thankful that I can still move my body because I already experienced being a potato in bed with miserable joint pains and cannot possibly walk until thanks be to God a million I was able to at least crawl to the bathroom and wash myself on my own.
Anyway again, I don't know if I can ever paint. The digital painting that I had done before required me a lot of hours to do and its a trial and error until I got the best creation suited for my taste and little talent.
I reckon that unlike oil paintings, when I would do a water color, I will not be able to erase a redo what color I had put in. Actually I had never done a "real" painting before and I am not sure that I can ever do it although I wanted to but I am not an artist and lacks the skill for sure in doing it.
I appreciate the funds you sent me through PayPal to purchase the needed materials, now I will have to try it but I am afraid to try, I am not an artist. 😅
Thank you Miss @wakeupkitty for all your attention, love and support. May God always bless and keep you along with your loved ones. 🧡🧡🧡🌹🌹🌹
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