Contest: Let Go and Heal
Hello my dear Steemians,
Today I wanted to write for this contest that is running by @anasuleidy , here is the link if you are also interested:
https://steemit.com/steem-venezuela/@anasuleidy/concurso-soltar-y-sanar
When I was in higher school years, we had to move house and I had to change the school. You can imagine that this is the most hard thing for children to move place especially in this years, because you already have many friends, your routine and at this stage it is hard to make such move. I remember that I told my mother that I want to visit the same school till it comes to end, but unfortunately, it was miles away that is why it is almost not doable.
With a lot of stress and anxiety of meeting new schoolmates and also the eternal question: “what if the schoolmates will not like me?” Nevertheless, I had to make that step and I had to leave my school that I attended since the very first class but also all my friends were also so little kids and we grown up like one family. Now it was not clear what will happen, very big Question Mark.
I remember that I had a long conversation with my mother and even had some tears in my eyes. This was very hard for my mother too because she felt sorry about me but also it was a step that we needed to do, as we had a new apartment and the old on was already sold. I also remember well that my mother reassured me saying that I definitely will find many other new friends and also that I should not bother about such things, just should be ordinary like I am and just relax and dive into this new section of my life. The good thing was that I met a girl who we immediately became good friends, she showed me everything, introducing to everyone and with her help I was very well accepted by my new class and it was such a great relief.
My story goes further and it was great time. One day it was summer and we had summer holiday, one day I heard from my friend that she wanted to travel to seaside with her boyfriend and they decided to drive over night so that they could arrive in the morning. When they were driving on motorway there was a lorry at the side of the road but without any warning lights and because it was night lorry was not possible to see. My friend and her boyfriend crashed into that lorry with a high speed, both of them died on the scene.
Me and my other friends we found it later and when I heard that I just could not believe that it was a truth. Just over one day to other my friend just gone, she was young, beautiful girl who just was starting her life. Of course, we visited her mother to express our sympathy, it was very hard to see her, she gave each of us a long and strong hug.
For me, the loss of my friend was something that I was recovering for long time. Even if we were speaking about her I always broke in tears and was not able to concentrate. I was in my memories about the time with my friend, I was locking myself in m y room and did not want to see anyone. My friends and family were very worried they were there around to support me.
Now, I can tell for sure that we can not clinging to someone or something, there is always time to enjoy that but also time to let it go. For me it was the memories and the past where I was with my friend. It was time when again with the help of my mother who tried very hard to fill all these little moments of my time and life. She did not let me to have such free time and we spend a lot of time doing something together. I had so much impression of the life around and slowly overcome that. I slowly let me my friend go and accepted that she will go and I do not need to feel guilty that she is not there but I am still here. The life and the fate of each of us different and we just need to accept that.
It is not easy to let something or someone go but it is often time when we starting next chapter of our life and it is time to make such decision. I know that some people need more time and I only hope that many will come over that and overcome that.
I am inviting following users for contest: @rumanaafroz, @monz122, @uzma4882
