oh @yogajill, I am so sorry to hear about your struggles. If you ever need to just talk or even just need someone to listen to your gripes, please feel free to email me at fernowlsteemit@gmail.com. I can relate, I can be a shoulder to cry on and I can possibly give you some tips to help get through the struggles. My name is Denise and I am more than willing to be there to help you get through this.