I'm tired. I am sad. I hope my life is fine
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Important thing. I deliberately didn't post photos of sad moments yesterday. When I saw the photos. My heart is very disappointed and very sad.
In my post this time. A little information from me to steemians friends so that friends know and why I did it. A few days ago, I was very sad. I went all the way from the village to my brother's place in Sigli City.
The story is the beginning. Last night, I contacted my grandmother's relatives who were in Sigli city. Because I really need money for the next few days. I've tried my best in the last 4 days. I went here and there, none of the other relatives gave me a loan.
When night falls. I tried to contact the only other relative, namely my grandmother's brother who was in Sigli city. I chatted with him about my difficult situation. I asked him to lend me money…. Grandma's brother said. Yes, you can just go to Sigli tomorrow so we can talk later.
In the morning I didn't have time to eat because I was in such a hurry. Because the trip to Sigli city from my house takes about 4 hours more. I think I'll just enjoy eating on the road later.
Which is strange. When I arrived in Sigli city at my grandmother's relative's house. When I arrived, my brothers didn't really like my arrival. I feel in my mind. and I understood in my heart when I saw the look on his face that wasn't very friendly🥹. Then I remained humble and smiled at the brothers there. They also asked what was needed here. Well, that's what's strange. Very strange, whereas all night I had been chatting on the cell phone with them. Very strange, right?
I answered. I came here because I was told to leave by my grandmother's brother, and last night our people talked. I came here because I wanted to ask for help. I really ask for help. Please borrow money for me like last night's chat. They answered. Nothing, said my grandmother's brother. No money. It's better to just go home now.
When I heard what they said, my heart was very disappointed. Very sad and a great shame. They were all really playing with me. Even though I was very tired at that time because I was riding my motorbike non-stop and it took more than 4 hours on the way to Sigli city.
Not even ten minutes. After hearing their words which made my heart really hurt. I kept smiling and continued my journey home. Giving a smile with a heart full of disappointment and pain. That's not nice, you know🥹.
I went home with a sad heart. I had to stop for a moment in the middle of the journey because my body was shaking so much. The weather was so hot that I was very weak and needed to rest in the middle of the journey. I did not complain to my family about this. I understand and I understand. If I complain to my family, this will definitely cause anger between family and relatives, it's better to just let me keep it in my heart. So my story from yesterday was very sad. Going all the way only brings home disappointment.
Tonight I was very confused. I have gone everywhere but none of my relatives helped me. I am with my family who are looking for a way out. I really need money next week. To go to Malasyia, and money for a shop door that is being built. The current economy is very painful after our family paid off the land for 24k STEEM a few days ago.
Sales at the kiosk in recent weeks have not been very good and quiet. I really need funds for life and the things I want to get done. That's how every night anxiety arises in my heart, I haven't even been able to sleep for four nights.
Thank you for stopping by my post, see you...Bye, bye!
You can't worry about tomorrow, which hasn't come yet. We live only today, from morning till evening, and at night we go to bed. We need to sleep well to gain strength. And if we don't like something, we need to look for the positive and thank Allah for the good things we have today.
I wish you success.
Actually, we should worry for tomorrow and it's wise to do so and build something for when you get older and if you have responsibilities like family/children living by the day is also no option.
Sleeping well is easier said than done, you can not simply switch the brain off. At least I can't and if I drove such a distance up and down to find out my relatives changed over night I would have had question and for sure not smiled.
Everyone has a life, everyone has the right to hear the reason and that's what I miss in this story.
The relatives are free not to borrow but they can have at least the decency to say why and not let her drive such a long distance and laugh at her face.
Sounds like a good tip for those relatives and honesty wouldn't hurt either. Why not say during that call there's no money to give?
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Wowww. Terima kasih banyak steemcurator01 telah menyemangati saya✨
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It sounds as if it wasn't the first time you asked for money. Did you ever pay back? Did you ever explain what it is needed for?
I understand that you felt hurt and it indeed is strange that they say by phone they would give you money (did they or did want to believe that is the case?).
I also wonder if you ever helped them out?
I know for instance that if people always knock on your door for money and never pay back or do something back it is very painful.
Next to that you drove your bike for over 8 hours, is gasoline for free
I must say you are not without money since you own land, and are building a shop. If I was you relative I liked to know how you do that and why you ask for help, I learned that if you don't save you cannot buy, let alone land or start a shop,
Lucky you, you have Steemit but I still wonder if you take care of your relatives, know how they feel or is it only about you?
and if it comes to posting photos, it's no must and there's no need to explain why you didn't it. I remember Steemit how it started and most writers didn't use a picture at all.
I wish you all the best and hope for the better.
I have never asked them for help in the past. In the past, I only asked other relatives for help. That day I was so in need that the only way was to ask them for help. Because my other brothers are in the same position as me too. Even in 2020. my family once gave them help. but they don't know how to return the favor. instead they made fun of me that day. it really hurts because the journey to their place is very far.
Yes, my kiosk shop is the result of our family working together to save money to build a kiosk in 2019-2020. Until now the kiosk is still running smoothly. but these past few weeks my kiosk has been very quiet.
Yes, I am very lucky to have Steemit and my account has now grown greatly thanks to advances from Steemchiller & RealRobinhood. I have never been at all angry with those who have made fun of me. In fact, I am always kind to them. Because I know that every human being has changes. Maybe they will later come to their senses and become good people who know how to repay my family.
Thank you very much wakeupkitty for visiting my post. I really like reading the comments you provide✨
Those relatives I would kick out! What kind of people let a woman drive such a distance? It makes me angry, and no way I would smile like you. I only once remember an uncle asking me to come to work for him, and I drove the entire distance (it took me a day), had the CV, all the papers, and he had something completely different in mind (and that after years of helping him out). I ended the relationships. No way I want those type of people, mocking me around me. If they cannot be honest and supportive, it's over.
It is good you wrote this down. Read it back every time you feel the need to ask for help or worse they want you to help them. Don't be an idiot, sweetheart, you worked hard during the epidemic,c and that is something to be proud of.
Before you help out ask yourself: Can I miss this, do I have some saving if I am in need, or my family is? if the answer is no, don't give take care of that first unless you have a good, big family who will support you for 200%. There's nothing wrong with saying NO, sorry. Giving doesn't feel good if you are hungry yourself.
Take good care of yourself and better knock here or there for help. There are kind people here willing to give you a hand.
I give you a big hug and hope the kiosk but above you will be okay.
Yes sis. I drove a motorbike very far, until I got there I just wasted my time and was sad because of their hurtful words. I am very disappointed. because before I go. I called them and asked for help. when I arrived at their place they even made fun of me.
Yes sis. Disappointed, that's not what happened from my own life experience… Moreover, I heard Sis's story. really the same, a little different.
That's right sis. that's right sis. Now I don't want to ask anyone for help from my relatives or brothers. I'd better try it myself. Steem is very helpful. I am very lucky to have Steemit. Steemit and steemchiller have saved my life.
Thank you, wakeupkitty. Your comment makes me happy😘
Anyone would be disappointed and hurt is a very gentle way of expressing your feelings.
This is and will always be what I don't understand. If you ask me it's easier to say by phone: No need to drive over, we won't or we can't help you. Is that true? If there's no money there is always food, a listening ear, some tips or advice, a cup of tea or coffee or water and a place to rest after such a long journey.
There's nothing wrong by asking for help as we say: You already have a NO and it can be yes. We can also not force people to help, since we will never be able to look in their lives. But the making fun of you especally, if they were in the same position?
We can not choose our family but we can if it comes to friends and relatives. I learned that at a very young age and Steemit made me meet very good people. After many years we are still in touch and distance doesn't matter thanks to all the techniques we have today.
I am happy you like Steemit and receive support and I hope you will find special friends like I did and many of us.
If we can't laugh together, we cry together, at least we know we aren't alone. No one should on Steemit or in this world. We are with so many, which means we all should be able to find a few good, reliable friends or.. family of our choice.
A good weekend, dear, and I hope to read/hear from you again.
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Yes sis. very disappointed. Because I already called them. and they said they were ready to help me. I went all the way to their house. they don't even care about me. they even made fun of me. that's what makes me very disappointed. because on the phone they are ready to help me. but when I arrived at their house I only got disappointment.
Yes sis. I can also understand their situation. but a few months later, I saw the story of their very luxurious life. So I wasn't wrong to ask them for help. because my position is in a bad economic situation. Besides, my family has helped them a lot in 2022-2023.
I think. I was not wrong to ask them for help. because they are relatives of my family too. but they never once helped our family when they were living in luxury. that's why I'm so sorry about this problem. Better unknown people than them.
Luckily I have the only way in Steemit. I really love steemchiller and steemit. steemchiller and steemit have saved me when I had big economic problems. I was very moved and sad. I am very lucky to have steemchiller and steemit and also my friends on steemit who have supported me from zero until now.
Really sis. I seriously say this while crying. For the past few weeks I have been crying every night. I am very touched and sad because I am moved to have steemchiller and steemit and also my friends in steemit..... I even think about how I can do my best for the friends who have supported me. So from then on I will make top posts for them, because it is my wish, if I am successful. I have to be successful with steemit friends all over the world.
I'm really happy to have a friend to confide in like Sis Wakeupkitty. This is what I say seriously. This is my inner voice speaking directly. I hope that until now I consider Wakeupkitty to be like my own sibling🥹.
I hope too. Sis is fine there too. This weekend, hopefully we will have a nice day. Warm greetings to Sis who has heard my life's complaints.
Actually, it's not good to tell about my economically chaotic life in steemit comments. but I've already said that. Hopefully the steemit team and other friends can understand and feel the complaints of my current life. Hopefully the steemit team and also my friends in steemit will not forget me🥹🙏.
I always hope that your day and your life are all good and enjoyable✨🫶
I don’t think it’s complaining if you say how you feel and it’s the truth. Why should you pretend everything is fine when the worries and bills pile up? It’ll only affect your health and make you miserable. I admire that you keep smiling even when you’re backstabbed and laughed at. Honestly, I gave up on that a long time ago—I don’t see the point in pretending.
You know, no matter how hard my life was, people always assumed I had no worries because I never spoke up. The result? They always think you have all the solutions—you give and give, you smile and ease their worries, but the moment you need something, every door is closed.
That’s not how it should be. In a relationship, both sides should put in the effort.
I agree with you—it’s not wrong to ask for help, whether from family, a neighbour, or even a stranger. Like I said: You might not always get a ‘yes,’ but it’s always worth a try.
Asking isn’t easy, but neither is saying no or setting boundaries. I truly hope you’ll do that to protect yourself, and I’m glad to hear Steemchiller is willing to help you.
As for the other Steemians, remember—you can’t help everyone, and you can’t do more than your best. And that is enough. You know what I say? If you can't do anything for me, who knows, one day you can for someone else. I like to believe that those kind acts can generate a wave of kindness and love, a sort of domino effect.
I’m happy to have you as a sister. Thank you so much. I'm sending you a big hug. Let’s stay in touch, okay? Have a good day, dear sister.
Yes sis. that's right. actually don't complain too much. Yes, I always try to smile when there are problems, because that's the only way to calm myself down. even though mind and soul are down.
I'm not wrong, right? Because I asked them, they are relatives of grandmother, father, mother. Yes, I would have already done that anyway because I had no other way. But I only get sadness. I don't have a problem, I'm fine, and I never get angry or resentful… Yes sis. I am very moved and sad. because steemchiller always helps me here. This is really touching, steemchiller has helped me a lot.
Yes sis. I can't give the best to all steemians in this world. But now I have tried and tried my best. Sis, that's very true. I am very happy to hear what Sis Wakeupkitty said.
Thank you very much, sis, for this very impressive response. I hope you are always fine and happy🫶
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I am also sad reading this my friend. Do not lose hope, good days are about to come. Just trust the process.
I admire you being humble just keep it doing and you will be blessed.
Yes sis. I am also very grateful for your words. Hope you have a nice day☺️
It made me sad reading your post and imagining your situation. I had to powered down for some reasons so I can feel your pain but inshallah everything will be happy. I don't know about you but since you didn't share the mean (I think) behavior you got from your relative with your family considering it would break or distance the family relationship so I am sure you are a good-hearted and mature person. May Allah solve your problem soon (Amen)
May Allah give us the best. Thank you very much, sis❤️
semua orang pasti pernah mengalami masalah kesulitan financial, tetap semangat n berdoa ya dek smoga masalahnya ada solusi
Iya kak. Kita benar-benar harus semangat 🥰🫶
So sorry about this your family treated you
Hope you find a way out soon
Please be strong
Yes sis. I am always strong to face it. Thank you very much sis🫶
It’s my pleasure..we all face difficulties but I know you are a strong woman like you said and wil come about victorious…
Thanks for your supporting my posts🙏
Am grateful
I'm so sorry it happened to you. Life is really hard these days. I hope your problem will be solved and that God will send you and angel for comfort
Yes sis. Hopefully it will find a solution and it will be like before. I want to be happy and stay humble.✨
Ah! This experience hurts. The economy is harsh for most people currently and even businesses are feeling the shock. Few people barely have enough to live on or lend. Sad that you had to go through that experience. Please cheer up. You will sail through.
Yes that's right. Everything must have a way out too. Thank You