Growth and some encounters forces some changes on us.

Growing up I used to be very friendly, very jovial and loved to hang out with friends and people but never really thought about if they want me around too or not, I just loved it and I did without thinking, then I thought the world and people would treat and take you just the way you take them but I was wrong, because your heart and intention towards a person is pure does not mean or make their intention towards you pure too. You can have good intentions towards a person, probably one you call a friend, while what they have towards you is something they should have for an enemy.

There are so many people I regret meeting or having anything to do with and there are some that I am glad our paths crossed, there are some who were trusted and did everything within their power not to break the trust and there are some that took advantage of the trust and left me with a lesson, over the years we have seen and met with different people, some were a blessing and some a lesson.

The world is nothing but a jungle with predators everywhere waiting for whom to prey on. Being excessively friendly and jovial or trying to hang out with people gives a lot of people access to you, and the more people have access to you is the more exposed you are to danger as you don't know people's intentions. Somebody can smile with you and still be the one to harm you later on. For your own safety, you should limit and reduce the number of people who have access to you.

I had a friend who was just like that and he left for school but a few months later was returned home sick and there were rumours that he was too friendly and too accessible and must have been poisoned by one of the many people he gave access to him, he almost did not make it but luckily he did and after that he did not see the world the same again and experience is never the best teacher, I also adjusted and today we are all completely different people, a lot has happened over the years and all that have happened both the good and the bad has forced us to change and make lots and lots of adjustments.

The best word to describe what I have turned into over the years should be introvert; I no longer hang out with friends, and the things I did for fun back then no longer seem or look like fun anymore. Many people see it as pride, but it is not. I am still jovial and playful like I used to be, but now you have to get really close to actually see that side of me, more like getting into the inner circle, which is quite difficult, as I prefer and enjoy my own company.