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RE: The school that abused me and other children keeps deleting evidence of their crimes
I'm proud of you! Keep exposing them!
I can only imagine the trauma you experienced and I hope you are getting the relief you deserve. I've had post traumatic stress since I was a teenager from my sister's suicide attempt. I had to carry her naked lifeless body down our stairs and I witnessed my mother shitting herself from one side of the house to the other. My youth minister and I cleaned up the house the next day. The images are vivid 23 years later. I'm finally getting some help after all this time of holding it in...relief has been slow to come
Thank you for your strength and honesty, @mantishands
I highly recommend this:
I used it recreationally a handful of times in college back in the 90s and will look into this...thank you
Have you done this MDMA therapy?
It was part of my healing process; not the only part, but a very, very significant part.
It's like ten years of therapy in five hours, but can still take several sessions to reach the core. It attenuates activity in the amygdala (reduces fear reaction in response to revisiting trauma memories) while enhancing self-empathy. It's a remarkable dual-effect which makes it very effective for PTSD (which I believe many humans have without knowing it).
http://www.mdmaptsd.org/infographic.html
that is a horrible image you just described....
"naked lifeless body" It really puts your memory in front center stage. It sounds like a novel, but yet, it's your memory and something that has tormented you.
I also was severely damaged from my own dad's suicide attempt....he hung himself in our family home. He survived though because the belt buckle broke. The image of my dad hanging in our house haunted me for a long time.
Hi Stella Bella! Thanks for your reply!
I'm very sorry for what you saw. I know the feelings you experienced were awful.
I would be willing to try any therapy...I can't do anything illegal though because I'm going through a divorce and have to take drug screens. I started seeing a doctor 18-19 months ago because of a depressive episode and my wife has claimed everything bad she could think of against me including being a drugged out maniac. It's a mess but its okay. Yah has my back!
This is the first time I've ever written about it on a public forum and was inspired by @matrjoschka
The more you write and face the reality, the less power it has over you. That's been my experience anyway.
I think you're right. Apparently, I'm a slow learner...Ha! I've always found that comedy and especially the self-deprecating kind has kept me going. Writing about it, though, will add another arrow in my quiver to attack the pain. It's definitely time...and I'm looking forward to following your work.