About Things That Are Not Anymore

Greetings, living hitchhikers

I've been reflecting a lot today on the past lives I lived during this same existence. I truly miss so many different people that I've met along the way, and that now are not in my life anymore.

It's interesting to feel this longing for what is no more. Memories are not as concrete as our minds make it be. But that does not mean I cannot miss some aspects of what was reality then.

I really do miss some amazing people, and I truly hope with all my heart that they're doing good, whatever they're doing right now. I've met other incredible people since, but no person is equal to another. Living is not easy at all, but I was fortunate enough to have the aid of some of these special people to make it easier, and I'll always be grateful for it.

We grieve for the versions of us that are not anymore. I really wish I remembered where I first heard this, or read it, so I could properly credit it. Somehow I feel like I grieved also for the illusions that I created about what living should be. About how I should behave, about how things need to be.

Things just are. We need to just accept that the Existence is the way that it is. We need to accept that what has already been, has already been. We can only change what we do in the now we're experiencing. We have the choice to do better this time.

It hurts to lose a friend in your life because you've parted through different ways. I feel a profound feeling of desolation sometimes, mentally traveling to times that are not anymore, trying to figure out how I could've made things differently. But in the end, we cannot solve everything. We're so limited in how much we can affect the world.

I won't end this post on this pessimistic note. I truly hope to meet these people again in my life, but even if I don't, I hope that somehow these words help me put a new meaning to these longings.

I hope that all these amazing people that once were an integral part of my everyday life, can find inside themselves the purpose to be happy in this planet we live in. I'm definitely searching for what makes me happy, and it's not been easy. But it's been great. I hope we can all find some peace in this world.

Amo vocês, e sempre amarei as memórias felizes que construí com cada um de vocês, queridos amigos que fiz pelo caminho🖤