The current version is the best version

Time runs fast, and it’s indeed not so easy to always track the time. We can’t figure out how time is going so fast, as our time is stolen. We can realize it when we look back. We grow up with time and try to be better. Finding the change is not so easy in a short time, but when the time difference is larger, we can notice that very clearly. The best way is to think about the past version of ourselves and the current version of ourselves.....

At the current time, I am 27, and so I am going to consider my version of 10 years ago. 10 years is indeed a huge time, and to be honest, I also didn’t notice how much time passed. I just feel like I was 17 a few months ago. I know many of you feel the same as me, but there is nothing I can do for myself, and with time, I have grown up a lot, and I can feel many differences between my old versions and my current versions, but at the same time, there are many things that are still the same as my old version had.

10 years ago, I was in XI class and was admitted to a college. In that time, I was little, and I was not so broad-minded as the current one, but I was also a calm person even in that time. I must praise myself for my calm mind. In that time, I think I was more of a robotic type, as in such a time I was obsessed with my studies only and didn’t care about other things in the world. Do you know, even in that time I didn’t want to make female friends, thinking that they could waste my time for various reasons. I was a robot for sure at that time, and in the case of emotions, I didn’t care much. Still, I have a robotic type of mentality but not all the time, because I think life can’t go in that way. Now I understand that I need to cherish my emotions also, and I should not dominate my emotions all the time. In the long term, I can make myself feel regret also.

In that time when I made plans for my life, I used to think that I was the controller, as most of the things used to happen according to my plans. I didn’t want to admit that there are many variables in life, and many things happen even if they weren’t in my plan. I faced a few setbacks in life, and that made me realize even with a perfect plan, there can be variables in life, and I can’t control everything in life. It doesn’t matter how hard I try; there are some things that will happen against my plan. When I faced such a situation, I was upset for some time also, as it was unexpected and hard to believe for me. Now, I know it well, and I keep myself prepared if such a situation arises again. At least, it won’t affect me too much.

I believe that I can control the situation according to my plan, and I used to think of it as my confidence, but now I feel I was one kind of arrogant thinking in that way. But now I have gained knowledge and experience, and in the case of controlling the situation, I have become the master instead of uncertainty. But this time it’s truly my confidence, not the arrogance, and I can understand it.

To be honest, I think that from every way, I became better compared to my 10-year-old self. Another surprising thing is that my memorizing power has increased significantly, especially in the last few years. It’s a very good thing for me, although the reason is still unknown to me. So, I think at the present time my version is the best version of my entire life till now.