been so hard for me to find true love.

I've I been wrong for falling in love? no I was only been careless . I've long for a harmful Period of time to be in love and to be loved. but to no avail, then I began to ask myself was I not good enough for any lady to be in love with? Or will I remain single all my life? But as I think deeper I realised I've missed so much opportunities by not appreciating those whose at a point feel in love with me, because I seems not to care about anything but pleasure and leisures .why has it been like that? Pride? No lack of confidence? No no but I discovered that I was lost in merriment and pleasure of life which blinded my insight not to have appropriate those who once had feeling for me. I thought everything could last forever, Hmmmmm what a mistake, but now I've realised that the best one could do is to appreciate those who took their time to care and loved you cos I time will come when you will find them in another's man arms cared and loved for which you refuse to offer because you consider yourself to special and hot... am deeply sorry for those whom at one point in time loved and cared for me but which I neglected them, a lesson I've learned which now turn back to hurt me. If I could turn the hands of time I will rewrite so many wrong deeds I've done due to negligence.. it hurt to feel and be lonely, not to be and be loved by someone.