School Life Ka Pehla Pyaar – Jab Mohabbat Ne Tootne Ka Dard Sikhaya
Kuch saal purani baat hai, jab main class eight mein parhta tha. Ye meri school life ka ek aisa hissa hai jo shayad kabhi bhula nahi paunga.
Mujhe apne school mein ek ladki bohat pasand thi. Har din usay dekhna, us ke saath ek hi classroom mein hona – ye sab meri life ka sabse haseen hissa tha. Lekin kabhi himmat nahi hui us se kuch kehne ki.
Ek din school ke trip par hum Maritime Museum gaye. Wahan hum dono ne bohat enjoy kiya – saath lunch kiya, maze kiye. Mujhe uske saath waqt guzaarna bohat acha laga. Shayad usay bhi kuch mehsoos hota tha, par dono ne kuch kaha nahi.
Time guzarta gaya, aur 8th class ke baad us ne school chhor diya. Main udaas ho gaya, lekin ek din himmat karke us ke ghar chala gaya aur us se apni dil ki baat keh di. Uske ghar ke stairs par khara ho kar maine use "I love you" bola – phir wahan se chala gaya.
Kuch waqt baad, maine uska number dhoondh kar us se contact kiya. Kabhi wo mujhe bohat pyaar se baat karti, kabhi bina wajah block kar deti. Ye sab mere liye bohat takleef-deh tha. Main apne emotions kisi se share nahi kar paata tha – andar hi andar toot raha tha. Depression ka shikar ho gaya. Dawaaiyaan tak leni padi sirf sukoon ke liye.
Phir ek waqt aaya, sab kuch theek lagne laga. Usne mujhe apne ghar bulaya. Jab main gaya, to us waqt ghar mein koi nahi tha. Hum baith kar baat kar rahe the, tabhi uski cousin aa gayi aur usne uske father ko call kar diya.
Uski izzat ko bachane ke liye maine sab kuch apne sar le liya. Jab uske father aaye, to maine unse kaha:
"Agar kuch kehna hai to mujhse kehna, ismein aapki beti ki koi galti nahi."
Main ne unhe koi proof nahi diya, sirf ek baat boli:
"Main is ladki se nikkah karunga."
Lekin unhone meri koi baat nahi suni, mujhe nikal diya gaya.
Next day maine us se contact karna chaha, lekin uska number off tha. 1 week baad contact hua, to usne sirf ye kaha:
"Main tumse sirf timepass kar rahi thi. Agar ho sake to maaf kar dena."
Yeh sunkar mere pairon tale se zameen khisak gayi.
Usne mujhe har jagah se block kar diya. Number change kar diya. Main toot gaya. Itna depression ho gaya ke lafzon mein bayan nahi kar sakta. Aaj wo doctor ban chuki hai, engaged bhi ho gayi hai... Aur main? Ab bhi struggle kar raha hoon.
💡 Message to Readers:
Agar aap kisi se mohabbat karte hain, to pehle apne aap se mohabbat karna seekhein. Kabhi kisi ke jaane ya dhokay ki wajah se apna aap na khona. Jis shakhs ko aapki kadar nahi, uske liye khud ko barbaad mat kijiye.
Khud se pyaar karna seekhiye. Jo log aap se mohabbat karte hain, unka dil kabhi mat todiye.