I'm very glad to hear about your foot.

I've heard of dubstep but I couldn't really recall what it was like so I searched youtube and got this. Is this what you listen to?
Best Dubstep Mix 2018 [Brutal Dubstep Drops]
I made it 25 seconds in and I couldn't look at the screen! I am super sensitive though. It's a blessing and a curse.

Music is life, one of the only escapes that can bring me to a somewhat resting state which is nice

Do you know Wim Hof? The Iceman? You should give him a try if you want a resting state.
If you have it to spare, humor me for ten minutes.
Be sitting comfortably before you push play and be ready to follow along and breathe.