The thanatonic aspect of being a musician seems to be a cult like theme. Celebrated by all. We almost expect the vanguards of music to be icarus like in thier music and life. Archetypes and expectations. It preys upon artist and audience. Thanatos the death urge and eros the life urge. If one doesnt address the death urge in one self often they allow it to run rampant till it is a self fulfilling prophesy.