Another masterwork of a post dear @eaglespirit :c)

Yes, there is nothing quite like a discussion of sexuality to take ourselves out of our comfort zones (although I do imagine that this is not true for all of us).

Some of the elements that you speak of I am not familiar with. Since I am just another guy I didn't and don't have the dubious pleasure of being hit upon at every turn. I have to admit that there have been times that this has been disappointing - but I guess most girls are both more sensible and simply don't swing that way (though there was that one person a very long time ago who went out of her way to get me drunk - likely a missed opportunity). :c)

In all honesty I feel that women sometimes 'expect' me to be a jerk - and often find myself crawling into my proverbial shell as eyes scan the pavement as I walk past. It kind of feels like I carry a portion of the guilt of those less "gentlemanly" of my gender.

Other elements I am more familiar with - such as the feeling of body shame. I've always been a little plump but between a large birthmark at the hip, an overall discomfort with the changes in hair "distribution" - and a procedure that brought a whole new meaning to the phrase 'pain in the butt' for many years...

I have long since accepted that even if I might not be unattractive - I am "damaged".

On a different note - it is refreshing to hear of one who is less inclined to judge those who have tried something 'unorthodox' or who might even have certain such tastes. I personally do believe that some of them are due to a supply problem - as in, a person would be less inclined to engage in them if they had a more regular avenue via which to unleash their sexuality. I digress.

I think that it was very brave of you to write about this. You nailed it and I trust and hope that you feel a little more liberated than even the norm. :c)

Wishing you well always!