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PERASAAN RAFANDRA

Waktu terus saja berjalan. Kini matahari beranjak siang, dan kami masih dengan posisi yang sama. Dia tak lagi gemetaran. Seharusnya aku menjauhi gadis berbahaya ini, tapi dia terlihat begitu menyedihkan. Aku sudah tidak peduli jika sifatku berubah karena pengaruh kemampuannya. Dan aku bahkan…. ingin melindunginya.

“Kamu kekanak-kanakan. Begini saja berdebar? Seperti remaja Labil!.” Aaaarrggh, anak iniii!!! Membuat kesaaal! Dia melepaskan diri dari pelukanku.

“Kau sendiri kenapa harus memilih mobil sebagai tempat untuk menyendiri!!!!” Justru kau itu yang lebih kekanak-kanakan. “ Dan aku seperti ini karena kau yang membuatku begitu!”

“Engga.” Dia mencoba merapikan rambutnya perlahan. Jawaban singkatnya membuatku terdiam.

Matanya sedikit memerah, dan berair. Apa tadi dia menangis? Tadi aku tidak bisa melihat wajahnya dengan jelas. Sekarang ia sudah tenang kembali. Tak ada lagi tanda-tanda bahwa tadi ia terlihat begitu frustasi, hanya dalam sekajap saja?? Ah, ya, Aku selalu saja lupa, dia Bebi, bukan gadis biasa lainnya. Hal aneh memang biasa dilakukannya.

“Aku menggunakan tenagaku terlalu banyak, mataku memerah karena itu.” Dia keluar dari dalam mobil dan berdiri tepat di hadapanku sambil memberikan penjelasan singkat. “Kamu senang kan saat memelukku tadi?”

“Ehem, hemm…” Dia sengaja memancingku. Dia itu benar-benar… “Jangan gunakan kemampuan anehmu itu padaku!” Bebi kembali diam sejenak.

“Jantungmu berdebar lagi.” Ucapnya kemudian. “Apa sebesar itukah rasa sukamu padaku? Apa kamu semudah itu menyukai seorang wanita? Kita baru saja saling mengenal beberapa…?”

“Diamlah!!!” Aarrgh, aku tau aku menyukainya, tapi kenapa sekarang aku malah ingin membunuhnya saja!!

Ee??? Ah, tunggu!! Apa barusan aku mengakui bahwa aku menyukainya?? Kemana perginya keraguanku selama ini?? Aku menyukai seorang gadis yang membunuh belasan pria dengan tangan kosong. AKU GILA!?!?

“Mereka semua masih hidup.”
“Tidak! Aku sendiri yang memeriksa denyut nadi mereka!” Ucapku refleks. Sungguh, aku memeriksanya dengan teliti.
“Sudah ku katakan, aku bukan pembunuh. Aku hanya membuat denyut nadi mereka melambat dan menghambat peredaran darah mereka.” Jadi karena itu ya, metabolisme tubuh mereka terhambat dan mereka menjadi kaku. “Tapi setiap beberapa menit sekali aku membuatnya normal kembali selama beberapa detik, begitu terus selanjutnya sampai sekarang.”

“Kau….” Bagaimana bisa!!

“Aku tadi bingung apakah aku harus membunuh mereka? Aku bersedia mengikuti mereka asalkan mereka tidak mengusikmu, tapi mereka tidak mau mendengarkanku. Aku tidak bisa membiarkan mereka menyentuhmu, dan kamu sendiri juga masih tidak bisa bergerak di kamar kan?”
“Kau pikir itu salah siapa??”

“Aku memutuskan untuk berpikir di dalam mobil,” Kenapa harus di mobil, bukankah dia bisa berpikir juga meski di dalam rumah. “…tapi ini pertama kalinya aku menggunakan tenagaku sebanyak ini, tubuhku masih belum bisa menahannya.” Pantas saja tadi tubuhnya gemetar. Tubuh itu masih belum terbiasa menggunakan tenaga yang besar.

“Tunggu dulu!! Kau melakukan semuanya demi aku?” Tanyaku sambil mengikuti Bebi yang keluar dari mobil dan berjalan ke arah pintu rumah.

“Sudah ku bilangkan, percayalah padaku.” Bebi berdiri di depan pintu dan kemudian kembali melihat ke arahku. “Apa yang harus ku lakukan pada mereka? Aku… ga mau membunuh.”

“Kau hanya bisa mengontrol tubuh mereka dan bahkan sekarang tidak tau harus bagaimana?” Aku berjalan memasuki rumah. “Pertama, buat dia bisa bicara, kita perlu mengintrogasi mereka.” Aku jongkok di sisi salah satu tubuh pria paling kecil di sana. “Mereka yang tubuhnya kecil itu biasanya lebih jarang Berkelahi dan lebih sering mengikuti perintah. Artinya dia yang memerintahkan pria-pria lainnya.” Bebi hanya berdiri di pintu mendengarkan penjelasanku. “Artinya juga, dia yang paling banyak menerima informasi dari pada yang lainnya. Kita harus tau informasinya terlebih dulu. Tujuan mereka, semua hal.” Bebi masih saja mematung di sana. Apa dia sudah kehilangan kemampuannya? Apa sesulit itu memahami ucapanku?

“Rafa.” Bebi akhirnya bersuara.
“Apa lagi? Cepat sadarkan dia!” Haa! aku mulai tidak sabar.
“Aku sudah mengetahui semua informasinya tadi, bahkan tanpa harus bertanya pada mereka.” Ucap Bebi dengan wajahnya yang memandangku secara aneh. Ya, sangat aneh.

Ah ya, benar juga. Dia kan... Aaaagghh…. Aku hanya mempermalukan diriku sendiri saja! Ada apa dengaku hari ini Tuhaan…!!?? Aku menarik nafas sedalam-dalamnya. Mencoba menerima nasib bahwa hari ini aku penuh sial.

Tiba-tiba saja terdengar suara tawa terkekeh. “Berhenti membaca pikiranku!!” Bebi tertawa, dan bahkan semakin keras.

“…. Kamu ini benar-benar professional Raf…” ucapnya dalam sela tawanya.
Dalam pantulan sinar matahari yang semakin memanas. Wajahnya terlihat begitu segar dengan tawa itu. Ini pertama kalinya aku melihat dia tertawa lagi seperti dulu. Begitu lepas. Tanpa beban. Gadis aneh. Tapi… dia membuatku tersenyum.

Bebi. Tak satupun dari perilakumu yang bisa meyakinkanku untuk membunuhmu. Kau malah menyelamatkanku. Kau hanya…. seorang gadis bodoh. Entahlah. Tapi, meskipun semua hal darimu itu aneh. Aku suka… . Bisakah hal ini terjadi?

RAFANDRA’S FEELING

The time goes on. The sun is rising now, and we are still in the same position. She was no longer shaking. I should have avoided this dangerous girl, but she looked so pathetic. I do not care if my nature changes because of the influence of her ability. And I even .... want to protect her from now on.

”You are childish. Are you pounding? Like a labile teenager!” Aaarrggh, this kid!! She drives me crazy!!!

"You, yourself, why did you choose a car as a place to be alone!!!!" In fact you are more childish here. "And I am like this because you made me so!"
"No." She tries to smooth her hair slowly. Her short answer makes me shock.
Her eyes are slightly flushed, and watery. Was she crying? I could not see her face clearly earlier. Now, she has calmed herself. No more signs that she looked so frustrated, just in a moment? Ah, yeah, I always forget it, she is Bebi, not an ordinary girl. Strange things are commonly done by her.
"I use too much energy, my eyes are flushed because of it." She gets out of the car and stands up right in front of me while giving me a brief explanation. "Were? You happy when you hug me?

"Ehem, hemm ..." She deliberately swatted me. She's really ... "Do not use that odd ability on me!" Bebi keeps quite for a moment.

"Your heart is pounding again. Do you really like me?? Are you that easy to fall in love with a girl? We just got to know each other...? "

"Shut up!!!" Aarrgh, I know I like her, but now I feel like I just want to kill her anyway!!

Ee??? Ah, wait!! Did I just admit it that I liked her?? Where has my doubts gone? I like a girl who kills dozens of men with bare hands. I AM SICK!?!?!
"They're all alive."
"No! I’ve checked their pulses by myself!" I said reflexively. Really, I checked it carefully.
"I told you, I'm not a murderer. I just make their pulses slow down and inhibit their blood circulation." So that's why, their metabolism is hampered and they become stiff. "But every few minutes I make it normal again for a few seconds, I keep doing it until now."
"You ..." How can that be!!

"I was wondering if I should kill them. I was willing to follow them as long as they do not bother you, but they won't listen to me. I can't let them touch you, and you still couldn't move in your room, right? "
"You think it's my fault??"

"I decided to think in the car," Why should be in the car, couldn't she just think inside the house? "... but this is the first time I have used my energy this much, my body still can't hold it." No wonder her body was shaking. The body is still not used to produce great power.

"Wait a minute!! You did it all for me? "I asked her as I follow her who got out of the car and walked toward the door of the house.

"I've told you, believe me." Bebi stands at the door and then looks at me. "What should I do with them? I ... don't wanna kill them. "

"You can only control their bodies and now don't even know what to do?" I get into the house. "First, make him talk, we need to interrogate them." I squat on the side of the smallest body there. "Those who are small are usually less to fight and more often to follow orders. It means that he ordered the other men. "Bebi just stands at the door and listens to my explanation. "It means that he is the one who received much information than the others. We must know the information first. Their purpose, everything." Bebi is still silent in her place. Has she lost her ability? How difficult is it to understand what I've said?
"Rafa." She finally made a sound.
"What else? Hurry and wake him up!" Haa! I'm getting impatient.
"I've already known all the information, even without asking them." Bebi looks at me with a strange glance. Yes, very strange.

Ah yeah, that's right. She's right ... Aaaagghh .... I'm just embarrassing myself! What's wrong with me today God ... !!?? I take a deep breath. Trying to accept the fate that today is my awful day.

Suddenly there was a laugh. "Stop reading my mind!!" Bebi laughs, and even harder

".... You are really professional Raf ... " She said it while laughing.
In the reflection of sunlight which is increasingly heated. Her face looks so fresh with that laugh. It's the first time I've seen her laugh again like she used to show formerly. No burden. What a strange girl. But ... she makes me smile.

Bebi. None of your behavior can convince me to kill you. You've saved me. You are just .... a stupid girl. I have no idea. But, even though everything from you is weird. I like it…. Can I do that...