"just" creates "just" a haunting image

Double just ;)

use a tape recorder

haha that is underestimating how jumbled and fast my thoughts move, my mouth can't keep up, my hands have a better chance lol plus these thoughts strike me at the worst times. Half way through a phone call with a customer.

"Please hold, yes.... you I do know who you are... and yes... i know how very important you are... I am still processing your order, but i had this wonderful thought about a poem I read two weeks and I simply must write it down immediately" haha

It isn't so bad for me, part of the joy in reflection is letting the musing a poem evokes wash over me like the warm ocean shallows in the lazy summer sun, catching me by surprise, each one greatly appreciated, savored before it slips away. Some things aren't meant to be trapped on paper. Letting each reading bring new waves, or the same waves feeling new, for they weren't held on to, but instead enjoyed for what they meant in the moment. (This is how i justify to myself that having a poor memory just means i get to enjoy a poem so many ways, again and again <3 - I just wish I could capture some of them to tell people how wonderful and inspiring their creations are)

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