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RE: Scale issues
And you don't think that the 'hard work' is a sign that something is off? :>)
I like to think that it's possible to be creative without the need to struggle, or the so called 'hard work' and I am slowly getting there.
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I like doing hard things (Kung fu is also hard work, and fun, and I really miss it). I want to animate and I like doing high detail stupid intricate things and sometimes (often 🤣) it’s hard and time consuming but if I don’t do it then I won’t be happy with the results which would have made doing it a waste of time.
Most of the hard work that I whine about is in my catch 22. I desperately want to work full time on this but I can’t unless J is home full time and he can’t be home full time til I’m making at least what he is now (ideally off this as otherwise it will just be the same situation again) and I can’t do that in a timely fashion unless I’m able to work full time on it. So I’m doing the best I can and not sleeping enough because the extra time has to come from somewhere (though at the same time I’m trying to fix that so my brain doesn’t get any more damaged 😵) and I’ve literally given up everything I’m willing to give up and one thing I wasn’t already to claw back more time 😝 I’m probably going to fail anyway 🙄 I just haven’t given up yet partly because I’m stubborn and partly because it helps keep me alive.
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