Some people want to end their lives easily. If you ask the reason behind this, you can understand how much pain they want to end their lives after going through. Some have the pain of losing a loved one, some have the neglect they receive from their family. If we talk about some girls, we will say the neglect of their husbands. If you see a girl in a family who is in turmoil, then you will understand that maybe her husband is neglecting her or because of her husband's lack of income, there is trouble in his family. Only those who suffer from this pain can understand how big a pain it is. To be honest, when every breath is taken in this pain, it seems that death will come and there is no need to live.
I too may be one of them. I am completely alone in a crowd of thousands of people, do you know the truth, what is the greatest feeling, explaining your pain to someone? Perhaps there is nothing more painful in this world than explaining your feelings to someone. When we cannot explain our feelings to our loved ones, we fail. Then even if we want to, we cannot survive in that place. Maybe that is why the poet said, "Leave quietly where you are not respected." Because the one who cannot respect you will never be able to keep you well no matter what. Alhamdulillah, I am very happy to see a new morning. However, it is raining heavily, what else can I say, it is absolutely difficult to leave the house due to the rain.
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But there is nothing to do, the market is empty at home, I don't know what to do. In the morning, I made hot rice, dal and potato stew for everyone. In fact, it is said that after a long time, almost a year, I cooked this dish. It was so much fun that it is impossible to explain, everyone finished their breakfast with potato stew and dal. My sons are kings and they will not eat potato stew with dal. So I fried eggs for them again, which was actually a bit difficult. Actually, after doing so much work, it feels bad to go to work separately again. But there is nothing to do, anyway, I completed the morning work and made arrangements to cook for lunch. The rain is pouring down continuously, I have to get wet in the rain to complete the remaining work. Due to getting wet in the rain, the amount of coughing has increased a lot.
In these few days, I realized one thing, even though it is extremely hot, when sweat enters my body. Then my cough increases, I have a cold and headache, and if I get wet in the rain, it is no longer a problem. My body condition gets worse. After cooking, bathing and praying, I felt very tired. If I could have slept a little, it would have been better, but I couldn't sleep. Because I have to feed everyone lunch. After lying down for a while, I got up again but my body was not responding. What else to do? I fed the boys lunch. I fed everyone lunch and I also ate a small amount of food. Then I took the cough medicine. In fact, after taking the cough medicine, I fell asleep so much that it is impossible to explain.
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As soon as it was four in the afternoon, my mother-in-law came and kept asking me if I was going to the market. There was nothing in the house. I couldn't even tell her anything because I was sleepy. Then the sound of the call to prayer for Asr woke me up. I got up early and finished some work at home. It wasn't raining at that time, but the sky was completely dark. Anyway, I left for the market. First, I went to the madrasa to pick up my niece from there. It was time for the call to prayer for Asr, so I had to wait for a long time because everyone was praying.
| Type of work | BDT price | Steem price |
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| Tilapia fish 7 kg | 1780 BDT | 121 steem |
| Barbati half kg | 40 BDT | 2.85 steem |
| Green chili 100 gm | 40 BDT | 2.85 steem |
| Gourd one | 80 BDT | 5.71 steem |
| Coriander leaves | 30 BDT | 2.14 steem |
| Kachur head | 50 BDT | 3.57 steem |
| Tomato | 120 BDT | 8.57 steem |
| Onion 2 kg | 140 BDT | 10 steem |
| Coil 2 packets | 120 BDT | 8.57 steem |
Then I took him to the fish market first, bought fish from there and then to the raw market. After that, I had some more shopping done, and I reached home just before the Maghrib prayer. When I got home, I first cut the fish, then prayed and sat down to study with the boys. But my head was hurting so bad that I felt like falling asleep, I didn't feel good. Then I studied with them until the Isha prayer, then I prayed and gave everyone food and went to bed. And in this way, I spent another day of my life. Wishing everyone good health, I am leaving here like today. Allah Hafez.
