Hidden Hero I Lost || My Mother My Light

Some people have such a profound impact on your spirit that you continue to hear their name in your heart even after they are no longer with you. Someone for me was — my mom. She was the one who held me when no one else could my home my strength and my silent healer. She was my secret hero not simply my mother. However life can be so harsh. My world has never been the same since I lost her unexpectedly in December 2008.

A Simple Woman With a Giant Heart

My mom was a straightforward gentle person. She didn't own enterprises or wear awards. However nothing in this world could compare to the strength of her love patience and prayers. Even though she was exhausted I can still recall how Mom would get up early make breakfast for everyone and smile. She silently took care of us. When she was in suffering she never showed it. Our storms were always calmed by her. She recognized my tears before I did. Her embrace took away my fear when I was feeling it. Even when nothing was okay she was the one person who could make everything feel fine.

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The Day Everything Went Dark

That day in December 2008 still sticks in my memory it was unexpected and took the joy from my life. She was with us one minute and then she was gone forever. No farewell. No final embrace. Nothing but quiet. Heavy cold quiet. Ever since that day I feel as though there is a significant gap in the world. A darkness that has never been illuminated by a lamp a person or a word. Every Eid feels lacking. Each smile seems weaker. Each tear serves as a reminder that my hero is no longer around to remove it.

I Miss Her in the Smallest Moments

When I'm cooking when I'm exhausted or when I just need someone to understand me without using words I occasionally look around and my heart silently begs "Ammi where are you?" When I see other girls going shopping with their moms I miss her. When I'm unwell and nobody touches my forehead I miss her. When I achieve I miss her because the person I wanted to make proud is no longer with me.

A Prayer to the Sky

Please grant her the highest rank in Jannah ya Allah. Remind her that she is still needed by her daughter. She is still missed. continues to adore her with each Final Words. I hope she is aware that her dua is still present in my presence. And the strength she left in my blood is what keeps me going.

My Final Words

My mom is no longer here on Earth. However she continues to be the most positive aspect of my tale. She was and always will be my peace my protector and my guide. If your mother is still with you... Talk to her give her more hugs take care of her and never allow a day pass without expressing your love for her. Because nothing takes her place when she's gone. It never does.

Mama ever since you left a part of me is missing… I smile for the world but inside I’m just waiting for one more hug from you.

Thanks for your precious time

Regards @neelofar