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In addition, I'm strongly leaning towards TAO, the way. So, even me struggling with coherency is as it is. No matter what I would try, the Same kind of things will create my current path. Simply meaning, I cannot be any other then me being the one I am.

And there is still many things am thankfull for. As I was and will be.

Having an open and positive attitude towards any outcome does do good. And in my own Experience it somehow seems to be in line with what I'm convinced about in my heart. Gutfeeling, subconscious, what ever it might be called.

My realistic realm is one that I do not get what I want. But line with the subject this could Mean that my deeper, most important filter, the truth of the heart, simply is not coherent with my conscious constructed wishes.

Think I should go and find that place and the here and now again...