hope it's not what you think

I don't really think about anything. I've had so many diagnoses, each one more "wonderful" than the last. I keep thinking about what a friend of mine told me about her mother: she went to doctors all over the country and everyone said they didn't know what was wrong with her. When they found her cancer, it was too late and she died a few weeks later. In my case, at least for the moment, it's not really about cancer, but about autoimmune diseases, which is even scarier because it's clear that there's no cure. But nothing is clear, of course.

can your brother not help

I was expecting this logical question. But the thing is, I don't want to tell anyone about it, least of all my relatives. Only my partner (and you, who read my posts) know about my condition. It's just that my relationship with my relatives is too complicated to share such personal things with them.😁