man it was really great to meet you and @dayleeo. I had an intense talking to from Brian Rhodes about dropping the mask and I know thats a real struggle for me. I guess in a situation like that, we're all dealing with our mask on some level or another, and it seems like you are further along the road to dropping it than me perhaps! I felt like you were very honest and open in the brief chats that we did have, but honestly, If I had been able to drop my mask, I probably would have cried and run away most of the time! Its hard when things are difficult, but sometimes its even harder when things go well.....so I override my terrified inner child with constant stimulation, like a social cattle prod, or really, like conducting a performance. Probably because I don't want to spend all my time alone..... but its a battle to retain a balance of sincerity/authenticity while also actually physically remaining somewhere in connection with other humans, when a whole part of you just wants to crawl under a rock and sleep off the massive hangover and never have to humiliate yourself with the vulnerability of your existence ever again. Massive love to you Phil. Im superglad that I summoned the courage to semi-authentically connect with you so that now I have another friend :) x o x o