Have people really changed so much, or am I the one left behind?
I still remember when I first came to the city from the village. I was in the fourth grade. I was expecting to make new friends, a new school, but the opposite happened. Two children – a boy and a girl – used to tease me every day for no reason. I have not understood why till date.
When I told my mother, she spoke to me in school with great courage. And the next morning the teacher scolded me in front of everyone, as if it was my fault. I am telling you the truth, I was very broken that day. I did not understand what to do, a strange silence had settled inside me.
With time I grew up. Completed my studies, then came to Delhi for a job. I had dreams, I had passion too… but I found something else here. There were many people, but no one like me. In the office, everyone was busy with their work, no laughter, no heartfelt talk. It seemed as if everyone was just “dealing” with each other.
The warmth that should be there in relationships was missing.
A few years ago, I went to South India for a few months for a project. It was a new environment, I didn't know the language, and the people there seemed very different at first. But gradually I understood that there was a truth in their differentness.
They were slow, but simple and pure hearted.
But do you know what the funny thing was?
Some of my own friends - from Delhi - started playing the same factionalism, the same backbiting, the same game of “how to show down whom”.
That day I felt the same pang of my childhood again.
I remembered the time when I was isolated without any reason.
I did not understand anything then, and I do not understand it even today...
Have we become so insecure that we cannot move forward without making someone fall?
A question often comes to mind -
Is a human being basically good or bad?
And my heart says - he is good, my friend.
It's just that the hustle and bustle of the world, this "I am the first" environment changes him.
Sometimes it seems like everyone is fighting a battle - alone.
And to escape that loneliness, people isolate others.
But I am tired of seeing all this.
Now I just think about one thing -
I should keep myself the kind of person I want to be - honest, clean and even if I walk a little slowly, it's okay.
It is not necessary to win everything, sometimes the biggest victory is not letting yourself lose.
So even today...
Quietly, a little tired, a little lost in thought,
I live my day - at my own pace, in my own way.
If you ever feel that the world is moving very fast,
and you are lagging behind -
then remember, it is more important to reach in the right way than to reach first.
If there is anything in my words that connects with your own life,
if any words stir something inside you, then I will be very happy.
My best wishes to all of you Steemit family.Stay healthy, keep smiling, and stay connected. See you in the next post, To talk about some new ideas and topics.
[prince-writer]