i have same feelings with you when it comes to the internet. it best to be on the internet without expectations. this post i am looking at things beyond this post as is shown more at the bottom part. are you on steemspeak.com, i feel it will help you alot and perhaps help allay any doubts as it did help me and all the mentors and top steemians are there, i mean people who can answer any questions on how steemit runs and even any general side questions. the mentors are there. i am also there as @surpassinggoogle