My Story - Nothing Pleases Me

I'm 24 years old, two higher educations, a good husband and a one-year-old child. In six months I go out of the decree to work.

The main events are planned for a couple of years ahead. There are financial difficulties, but everyone is full and healthy, she herself regained her prenatal figure. It seems that everything is good and will be even better, but it does not please or reassure. For some reason it's hard for me. Again began to smoke, smoke a week and left, does not help. Drink and a little bit every day and drank heavily, also does not relax, I understand that it's meaningless, she threw out all the nedopitoe.

Strong conversations with her husband and sleep, since every Friday we chat about everything until 3-5am Saturday, and at 9 am already on my feet. Music, concerts - fun, but also pointless and after all the same gravity returns. Sport, too, gives a result, but this result does not please me. I do not know what I'm missing, because in principle everything is fine, but I'm not happy.

I do not know how to remove this feeling of emptiness. I know that I need my husband, my daughter, I know that I have no right to fail them. And I want to say: "cope without me" and leave. I should not be bad because everything is good and right. And for some reason I feel bad and empty.