Lord! I was vibrating as i read this, vibrating with so much pain and anger for this grave injustice... It is so saddening... Trust me, You are not alone. I am a feminist and my advocacy for women rights has brought me in contact with so many of these kind of issues.. True, it might not be rape in the theoretical sense of the word but i will like to think of it as emotional and psychological rape because he knew he was way stronger than you and he still kept pushing you to give in...that in my dictionary is still force and non-consensual

I really hope you are better now though because i know it must have taken a lot to share what you did! Keep shining though, no man can put you down, you are stronger than you know!!!