Thank you @lynncoyle1. You are right, it is hard, we are too hard on ourselves and I really am the way you describe. I put everyone else first. And I do pay for it. I am still learning what battles are not worth fighting and learning that I don't have to help and be ok with it... In the sense where if the person can help themselves then I should let them rather than do it for them... It sounds bad but I am talking about people that suck the life out of others.
I know it is not my fault, but it is still what I did. That's the mountain I am trying to climb and heal from. I am getting there, and the feeling inside is the hardest part. Admitting and telling people this, it was hard but it did feel good to do it. A toast to healing futures :) xxxxxxxxxx
Thank you for sharing my story, I appreciate it greatly and I appreciate you and your time to read this. Thank you very much <3