Thanks Jill. I am honoured that you shared so openly and I pray that this help with your healing too. While I did go through some relief and elation yesterday, I've found myself now processing guilt and shame. Time for another post as it usually takes me a few hours to a few days to work through those feelings so that it is all processed and done.

I've looked back over my life and realized just how many meaningful relationships I sabotaged because I did not know that these two energies were separate. I missed out on a lot of emotional connections as a result. I hurt a lot of people.

So as I reflect on it all and come to terms with what I did, I will find the space to forgive myself so that I can move on and explore what it means to have an intimate relationship with a beautiful woman without getting it all mixed up with sexual inappropriateness in my head and torturing myself as a result. Please know that I never acted out the demons inside of my head and as such I was able to hold the space with the women in my life. This revelation just relieves me of the torture within.

Thank you so much for sharing. Peace and love to you.