I can share your feelings, I was raised Catholic and always drawn to god and jesus, but so much of it created a reaction within me that was also 'born of fire of spirit'. I continued through high school despite not really believing the bulk of it because I knew the core was true and I liked volunteering to serve people. My reactions are severe to people using the core truths for oppressive and manipulative reasons.
Thanks for reading and sharing. Such a twisting when people use the "gospel," to oppress and manipulate and yet many really do believe in what they're doing.
And, also frustrating how many throw all spiritualism related to God and/or Jesus out the window because they don't want to be affiliated.
Complex and individual and yet, we're all in this together, whatever this is, and that's a spirituality I can believe in.
Yeah, I didn't throw any of the good stuff out