It is elating to know that I have a good functional use to my family and in society

cryptopie (82)Memberin WORLD OF XPILAR • 9 hours ago

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Well it is based on who will see what I do and what is my worth or anybody's worth in society for that matter because to some people I am just a joke, a thing to be ignored and set aside and try to "unsee" me once they got a glance of me. Some treat me as trash, leech, and something to be disgusted about. I can't put my feet into those people's shoes, I find them to be evil and I tend to run away of I did see or met one because of course in this world that we live into, there so many mix of good and evil and you are just unlucky if you happen to deal with the evil people.

For some people, they do value me for what I am like my family and my church brethren. However there are people who aren't even my relatives who also cares for me existence. They are indeed "gems in the rough" to me and because of it I feel loved and emotionally secured because as a human being with a peculiar health situation in life, I need all the love that I can get for the reason that I am quite dependent on people and my survival and well-being depends on such people especially my immediate family and in many instances, my church brethren as I needed their specific help when I needed to.

If I will not be having anyone where I can get some help, I am just better off to "not exist anymore" but God's mercy and grace unto my soul is what makes me strong inside and it makes me to continue with my life. But my life did continued for almost 24 years now after being a dialysis patient and I somewhat thrived because at least I am contributing to our country's GDP and now, I was able to help my parents to have a new house (hopefully) with a power coming from the Sun.

All the thanks, praise, and glory is to God because of his unspeakable gifts! I never had imagined to reach this pinnacle of success in my life and I can say that it is good enough now, I am satiated. I already forgotten to achieve what is unachievable in my life because not all are possible. What I am doing now is to just cherish the things that I have although I still pray to God to give me the things if it is in his will. But I want to function for the betterment of my spirit which is why I am always trying to with the help and mercy of God, improve my health. I am still alive so I am still hoping for a better life, but maybe it will happen and I already am thanking God for it