RE: Conversations in my head.
Very valid point. Those darn second hand thoughts again ploughing the field (into ruts)! Ruts (routines) are not so bad, even. But when they become sticky mud pools that lie fallow it makes for a sad patch of land.
If only we grew up knowing we were special just as we are. But we can only learn to laugh and love and play creatively if somebody shows us how. Sadly if you are in a (brainwashed) rut those things are impossible. Love and creativity are never automatic. Only authentic when fresh in the moment.
When I use the word System I do have a very specific construction in mind that will try very hard to swallow everybody up. It is a force that pollutes individuality. But you are right we cannot become too paranoid about it, for there is no complete escaping it. I am not one for "going off the grid" in any radical way. That is often a bit of a lie too, if you ask the seasoned me.